all the horrors i’ve had to endure are of my own making.

love turns three today! 🤍 #MyXAnniversary

loving you isn’t enough anymore, i need to be inside you.

do you blame your father for the way you ended up?

fingers dig into your side, a budding flower of kaleidoscopic bruises in the shape of my fingers. deep enough to mark you, but not enough to harm you.

the clouds look terrifying but my moms up there.

goodnight, ma… i love you.

treat you like a garden,
I’ll be your eternal spring

i went to church, i felt safe there. not because of god, jesus, or any pastor but because the flowers grow there and no one can knock down the heaven roses bring.

you were so beautiful. how could you cause so much pain? how could an angel do that? how could you do that?

i think of you & now.. i don’t know what to do.

sometimes i forgot that my mother was someone’s daughter too. that she gets scared & hurt & angry & cries just as much as i do. that she’s human. i’m sorry, ma.

my mom loves me, she thinks i’m an angel. i could do nothing wrong.

mom, i’m gonna make you proud. i promise.

[VOICE BREAKING]. i hate you. and i love you. because i can’t help it——cause you’re my mom.

i need your memory eviscerated from this planet; your own mother will not remember you.

on a path of flowers, temptation and madness

can i watch you handle me

skin sweet as sugar.

beautiful brown eyes and sunsets that steal your heart